well, it has been almost a year since my last entry, but i figure id give an update. danielle and i lasted until last month,almost a year. we had our differances, and she was constanly lying to me, never being forward and her mother would never leave us alone. I mean wwe would constantly get calls at 2 to 4 in the morning from her. and in the process of the relationship i aquired alot of possessions that are no longer mine for some reason like my comics, as she and her mother are holding from me, my pots and pans and worst of the worst the large screen tv. she ripped my heart out and stomped on it, but i think im am in a better position now.
I dont have to deal with the constant lying, changing of stories, heart ache. It was overall a very bad end. I did love her, but she was mean and cruel, lacking of humanity and she was very self centered. I gave up everything for her, my friends, family, i moved out to burnham just so i could be with her. she gave that ultimatuem that eigther you live here or we arent going to be together. so i moved.
she made me choose between her and my family, as she never got along with them and never even tried. i jsut feel like i got out of a relationship with a gypsy. she robbed me blind, and the owrst thing of it is i really did love her. I tried so damrned hard to make it work, but when someone would rather keep on driving bya unresponded accident than to pull over or at least call someone, there might be some moral grounds needing to be worked one.
She didnt even care about anyone, the entire relationship she was kept saying i dont think it is going to work, and she kept on saying i wasnt her equal, that she was better than me and i wasnt on her level. But after all that i still loved her. so i guess i was a fool, but i relieze now how better off i am.
i can actually go to family dinners w/o having to have an excuse for why she isnt there, i can actually see and talk tomy friends, and best of all, i can be myself again.
What really hurts is i spent to much time on the house, i practically built it,painted it, put the floor in and cleaned and so much more all on my own, she was never helping with anyhting and i was always the one to to all the work. In the end i felt used and utterly betrayed. i thought i lost my best friend, but looking back i relized she never really was my friend. I tried and tried, but how can you work with someoen that keeps on lying to you? I couldnt, and her story was never the same
I hated after spending all that money on jewlery ad her ring that she never wore it, and then she tried to tell me she did, when it was in the same spot i last left it. I dont get it i was so loyal, i tried so hard and she jsut didnt care.
but im not loosing faith, i know there is the right girl out there for me, and i will find her, i will be successful, happy and have a beautiful family. a simple but great life. but now that all of that is updated, i got to go. peace
michael james marshall